• memory
    Childhood,  Imaginative Prayer,  Memory

    What Our Childhood Memories Reveal

    Memories act as markers for our lives, and our first ones often reveal a lot about how we see the world.  What you make of your childhood makes you, I believe.  One of my first vivid memories involves a small house I lived in at the age of three or four.  We lived in Colorado at the time and were quite poor as my parents attended graduate school.  I would walk up and down the block and once knocked on a neighbor’s door to see if she had any children.  I remember her house as pink and her hair as brown laced with silver.  She had no children and clearly…

  • Imagination,  Imaginative Prayer,  prayer,  relationship to God

    Imagination and Prayer: How to Encounter Jesus

    I still remember the river we saw while on vacation in Yosemite my junior year of high school.  The river’s perfectly clear waters shot past in a narrow channel, about hip deep. The icy cold chilled my parent’s feet as well as my brother’s, and mine as we sat on the edge.  My mother, brother, and I decided to jump in.  The cold rushed over me and after a few minutes, I got out shivering, but with the endorphin rush that comes from a dunk in freezing water.  The memory of that state of well-being has stayed with me my whole life. I felt fully alive at that moment and…

  • Anxiety,  Heart,  Imaginative Prayer,  Positive Thinking,  Self Awareness

    When Positive Thinking Doesn’t Work

    I hate positive thinking emergencies. They creep up on me at my worst moments. I stand at cliff’s edge, vicious barbarian armies closing in on me. In front of me lies the ocean. Even if I were to survive the sharp rocks that stud the cliffside, there is a sea monster waiting below, his gaping maw revealing rows upon rows of pointy teeth. I feel panic grip my chest, my throat. My hands shake. Then out of nowhere, I feel the hand of my co-worker gently squeeze my shoulder. “Try to think positive thinking,” he says, meaningfully and with sincere sympathy. “That’s it!” I think and begin to hum The…